I’m not sure what’s wrong with me. I did go to psychiatrists when I had a job with health insurance and they did not help. I’m at the point now that I would like to kill myself, but I’m a coward. I’m not looking for people to say "oh, don’t do that" — I’m mentioning that to give you an idea of how I have no hope and no desire to live. I isolate myself literally in my home. I’m in horrible debt now. I have no friends, no partner, no children and I’m almost 50.

I CANNOT afford to see a doctor, so please don’t suggest that. And the state will not help a single white person with no children, so please don’t suggest that. Even if I found a free clinic, I probably wouldn’t go because I have this problem about isolating myself in my house, fear of going out. And I’ve looked for free group therapy in my town and I haven’t found any. I even tried to get other depressed people to come to a group therapy via Craigslist. No one responded. If you suggest church, I probably won’t go because I have a problem with *isolating* myself.

Believe it or not, I wasn’t always like this, although I feel I’ve always had problems with depression. I was a flight attendant for 15 years. I’ve gained tons of weight, I will eventually have to file bankruptcy, if I can ever make myself go to the attorney and file and have the money to file. I just want to disappear when my cat dies.

Is there anyone out there that deals with this kind of thing and can suggest ANYTHING to help me just make the first move to helping myself?

Thanks in advance.

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So i live in a 9 people family, BUT we live in one of the fancy places. We live in a 6 bedroom home. My mom has JUST gone bankrupt! so my aunt and her 2 kids are moving away to a different house today ); and my mom is planning out where to go…..Idkk, but im really scared…we will be living in one of those (two houses stuck together places) and idkk.i been there with my friends before and the mexicans kept hitting on us…im 12 and they are like 49! ): my mom is divorced so theres no guy in the family…our car will be taken away too.my mom cant drive after the accident that scared her for life. so we would usually tell our maid to drive us….Sorry if i sound spoiled,trust me IM NOT. MY mom doesnt give me everything i want. But now we are moving to this home soon, im really scared cuz its only me and my 2 sister and my mom,and my mom cant drive ): And i have this fear that the people living near me will harm us……….This is a dramatic change in my life! ): wat should i do??Or how can i overcome this depression??I been so depressed.i havent eaten anything in 3 days.):
PLEASE READ! THE PEOPLE ARENT THE THINGS IM WORRIED ABOUT,IM WORRIED ABOUT TRANSPORTATION!

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Recently I filed for bankruptcy. Since this decision I visited the emergency room twice with high blood pressure. Now I just don’t have the drive to get on with my life, goals, duties or anything. My theory is I can do it tomorrow.

It has been 2 weeks since I checked in with the wii and basically about 2 months since I worked out on it. Is it the medicine for my blood pressure, ennui or depression?

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