I know Im a jerk i dont even know what to feel. how bad did i break this girls heart?
this girl is beautiful inside out, trusting, kind to everybody and alot of people take advantage of that including me. prior to meeting me, she was raped by 3 guys.
we are highschool sweethearts. im a player ignored her, treated her like crap, used her for sex and money while having other chicks on the side. she was always kind to me, by my side when i went bankrupt, bailed me out of jail and always, always there for me. one day I realized i loved her and asked her for marriage over and over, she turned me down every time.
Finally she broke up with me, cut contact for nearly 1 year. I missed her but then i fell in love with another woman K. However, 6 months ago i found her on facebook. she sent me a message to "let it go" but i insisted to talk, lost in the moment i confessed my undying love to her. Bam then i was on two boats, i kept her on the side as a "bootycall" but led her on with forever promises.
During this time, my businesses went into debt. this girl took out 00 student loans without asking for it back to help me. gave me her paycheck when my family was in trouble. so i kept leading her on with sweet words till one day she discovered about my cheating. then i disappeared with the other woman K without an explanation.
she was outrageous and sent me many mean messages, then yesterday I got this,
"I sent you many hurtful messages because I was in pain. I never blamed you for loving someone else, we don’t choose who we love. But I can never forgive you for leading me on for sex and money. I truly loved you even when you were broke, sick, selfish and manipulative. You were my first love, I loved you with pure, pure feelings for who you are. When you don’t feel the same, you should have just walked away. When people use me for a few days, a few months, I can just say fuk them. But you, a man who "loves" me, who knows the person I am, the kind of love I had for you, played me for years and years, is unforgivable. I will never forgive you in this life, and life after life. You have hurt and scarred me for life. If everything is a game for you, then you won".
she kept on sending those sentimental messages i had enough
i said " fuk off. i feel sorry for u im gonna change a number"
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