Does anyone have any advice on coping?

I know that my family is SO not alone in having a small business that looks like it will close but that still doesn’t help how I’m feeling.

I don’t want to go bankrupt. That would screw over a lot of people and taxes still fall on the individual corporate shareholders so even if we go under, we’ll just get absolutely raped by the city, state, county, and fed.

Everything keeps going up and down. One day we are told that we’ll get dispatches for work then the next it is no news… The strike back in July really fu*ked us, we weren’t part of the union but everyone else on the job site but us was on strike so that meant no work for us either.

This b*tch that runs our newest customer has no idea what the hell she is doing and apparently doesn’t realize that everyone on a job site TALKS TO EACH OTHER so we know that yesterday, today, and tomorrow this one job needs 6 trucks but she is only dispatching 3 trucks to the site, her own trucks, and screwing the people on site AND us because they won’t get everything done on schedule and we don’t get a dispatch. We got this customer through another one that LLOOVVEESS us. Every crew specifically request us because we know what the hell we are doing but they are out of funds until the start of the next fiscal year so they CAN’T give us work. They were our reference with this new company so it isn’t as if they aren’t using us because we do sh*t work.

For the life of us we can’t figure out why this chick is screwing her own customers by only giving them 3 trucks when they NEED 6!

I did the billing for October yesterday and the grand total income for the month of October was about ,000.00. We have highly variable months but our "worst" month in the last two years, before October, was ,000.00 and at best ,000.00.

I have no idea how we will stay in business at all 2 months from now when we need to start thinking of plates and renewed insurance when we have ,000.00. I’m not even sure how we’ll pay for my father’s meds and rent come the ,000.00 month.

I’m just so worried and depressed. I can’t sleep, I wake up with panic attacks and I’m down to half of an alprazolam (xanax) and I can’t afford to go back to the doctor for a refill.

I’m just so not sure what to do or how to cope.

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Our loan was in a "modification" with the mortgage company and we were late on the payments. We sold one of our trucks on Friday for 00.00 to pay the 2 months behind and today we got the letter in mail saying they were continuing foreclosure proceedings.
We called and they said we don’t make enough, but we do so they are working on something, but I have a bad feeling that they are stalling. I want to sell the house, but my boyfriend does not want to. Our home is worth more than we refinanced for, but will be hard to sell quickly. Our credit is terrible and our score is very low. What about filing for bankruptcy or trying to sell fast..before foreclosure starts again?
I don’t think we can do much to get out of the mess we’re in.
(we missed the payments because a/c broke..we live in florida and have new baby so we had to buy window units.)

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